Time.

Kerissa • May 19, 2017

Hello friends,

Last week, I had a follow-up with my neurologist.  I wasn’t expecting it, but she had a serious talk with me and my mom…  She told me that my mitochondrial disease is progressing, and because there’s no cure and no good treatments (except antioxidants, symptom management, etc.), she said there’s not much we can do except “keep me comfortable.”  I know I’ve been getting worse medically….I wasn’t this bad 2 years ago. But to hear my doctor tell me this was really hard, and I’m still processing all of what she said.  No 24 year old should have to hear their doctor tell you this.

She explained how our bodies “replicate” more and more mitochondria in order to continue living, but because of my bad mtDNA depletion (and the gene mutation that’s causing this which my doctors are still trying to pinpoint exactly), my mitochondrial DNA is getting more and more depleted as time goes on…

I don’t know what’s up ahead….but I will just keep doing what I’ve been doing the past several years and not give up.  Mito can take away so much, but what it can’t do is take away my hope in Christ.

I’ve been reflecting on Psalm 31 a lot lately.  There are a few verses that especially encourage me and help me.

“….But I trust in the Lord.  I will rejoice and be glad in your steadfast love, because you have seen my affliction; you have known the distress of my soul….you have set my feet in a broad place…

Be gracious to me, O LORD, for I am in distress; my eye is wasted from grief; my soul and my body also…

But I trust in you, O LORD; I say, ‘You are my God.’

My times are in your hand .

Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the LORD!”

~Psalm 31:6b, 7, 8b, 9, 14, 15a, 24

It’s so comforting to know that my times are in God’s loving hands.  Past, present, and future.  He sees my affliction and knows every time my soul is in distress (verse 7).  And He does something about it—He “sets my feet” firmly on the ground (verse 8b) so that I don’t stumble or keep falling from the heavy weight of this hard path.  So, as the end of this Psalm says, I will be strong and let my heart take courage after hearing this news.  I won’t despair.

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I said goodbye to my palliative care dr. this past Monday.  I so wish he didn’t have to go, but he’s leaving OHSU to become the director of the Serious Illness Care Program at Harvard which is a very prestigious position….my pain dr. told me that Boston was the first to start Palliative Care.

I was able to get a picture with my palliative dr. when I said goodbye.  I posted this on FB, but I know some of you aren’t on FB, so here it is..

On Tuesday, I had a follow-up with my pain dr.  My body has been becoming tolerant to my current pain med, and it’s not working as well—she said it’s good to rotate pain meds around every 3-6 months to prevent tolerance.  I have to soon start a certain med (which also helps pain) that is good for resetting the opioid receptors.

She also told me about a possible new treatment for my chronic intractable migraines which doesn’t involve medication of any sort. It’s this super cool non-surgical device that stimulates a specific nerve….kinda like a TENS unit but for migraines. We’re waiting to hear if my insurance will cover it.

Overall, this appointment was really helpful, and I’m so thankful she’s not going to move or leave OHSU!

Today I had my monthly follow-up with my GI specialist.  I lost more weight, even though I’ve been increasing tube feeds.  He said my oral intake needs to include more carbohydrates and fats, and he’s also adding an extra day of lipids (fats) to my IV nutrition.  I mentioned on FB how I threw up such a large amount one evening last week, even though I hardly ate or drank anything that day (I told him I was puzzled why I threw up so much without eating barely anything).  He explained that our stomachs make 1-2 quarts of stomach juices per day, and the small intestine is supposed to absorb it.  But because my small intestine (in addition to my stomach) is not working well, that’s why I just threw everything up.  He prescribed me another anti-nausea medication to take when my regular one doesn’t resolve the nausea.

Next week, my family and I leave PDX to travel to California!  My appointment with my mitochondrial geneticist in Pasadena is on the 25th and will last 3 or more hours. :O  This is my first time seeing him in clinic, although I have met him before at the UMDF symposium.  So grateful for his willingness to see me and go over all my gene mutations and variants of uncertain significance.  Praying he can offer some other types of treatments to slow the disease progression.

I’m excited to spend time with my whole family in sunny CA, too!

By Kerissa Lee April 16, 2026
Hi, friends, I just wanted to write an update on what’s happened since my last post. Sadly, the 2 different tube changes haven’t helped, and there’s still so much leaking around the tube. 🙁 The abdominal pain was decreasing each day, but for some reason, it has ramped up again and has been steadily getting worse the last several days. The pain is sharp and throbbing—it also hurts to use my abdominal muscles. I saw my primary care dr. this past Friday, and he ordered an urgent CT scan. I had that done this past Monday, and the scan shows that the balloon on the tube is lodged in my abdominal wall (it’s called buried bumper syndrome). 😥 So painful, but I’m thankful for answers! I actually had this issue many years ago, and usually, changing the tube size helps. But we’ve already tried 2 different tube sizes in March which hasn’t helped. I don’t know if the tract got damaged or what.. My PCP messaged the surgery team twice now, but they’re not responding still. Ever since my general surgeon left OHSU 2ish years ago to practice in New Orleans, it hasn’t been a good transfer to a different team. 😢 In addition, the CT scan also revealed that I have ground glass opacities in my left lung, so I have to go through work-up for that as well to figure out the cause.. Aside from these latest issues, I’m praising God that my mitochondrial disease has been stable still!! So thankful for God’s grace and faithfulness. The day I got my CT results, I read this excerpt below from one of Joni Eareckson Tada’s daily devotionals, and it was like the Lord was speaking right to my heart. I hope it’s an encouragement to you. ❤️ “Present pain and afflictions tend to heighten future joy. When is peace the sweetest? Right after the conflict. When does a cold drink taste best? When you’ve become very thirsty. When do you appreciate rest the most? After hours of hard labor. When is joyful company most pleasant? After enduring long days of loneliness. The truth is, our recollection of past sufferings may one day enhance the bliss of heaven. Eternity with the Lord will be so much more heavenly to those of us whose faith has been tested, battered, and tried, time and again.” -Joni Eareckson Tada One more thing.. I’d really love prayers for my uncle (my dad’s older brother). He’s been very sick in the neuro ICU with serious issues. First pneumonia, then bacteria in his spine which later broke his back. He had a major spinal surgery but still can’t move his legs. 🥺 On top of that, his kidneys started failing, so he had to be placed on continuous dialysis. He also had to be put on a ventilator due to fluid in his lungs. Then, he still couldn’t breathe well, so he had to get a tracheostomy tube placed in his neck. 🥺 Despite all this, he and his family are so strong and trusting the Lord which is a huge testimony to all of us and to the ICU. Could you please pray for peace, strength, and healing over his body? I know he and his family would be so grateful for your prayers. 💙 P.S. I wish I could show you my foster nephew’s sweet face in this photo from Easter Sunday! He is now 9 months old—the most precious and adorable little boy!! Our lives are so much sweeter with him in it. 🥹
By Kerissa Lee March 31, 2026
Dear Dr. Phillips, There aren’t enough words to express how thankful I am to have had such an amazing GI doctor like you these past 13 years. I think of all the hard challenges that have happened starting at age 20 and beyond: experiencing GI dysmotility, not being able to eat “normal” foods without terrible abdominal pain/distention, only tolerating soft consistencies like baby food pouches (which was not fun as a 22 year old!), needing an NJ tube placed down my nose, having a jejunostomy tube surgically placed, then no longer tolerating tube feeds, dropping down to 77 pounds, getting admitted the day after Christmas to start TPN, being surprised by the extremely high copper levels on my liver biopsy and starting treatment for that, going through septic shock which caused ischemic hepatitis (remember when my liver function test was 1674!), having sepsis 5 other times from multiple central lines and ports, requiring urgent surgery to remove my gallbladder, needing D10 added to my IV fluids for numerous mitochondrial crashes, and much more. Through all the highs and lows, you were there for me, and I truly feel like I hit the “doctor jackpot” to have had a GI specialist as caring, compassionate, knowledgeable, and kind as you. I shed quite a few tears to my chagrin at my last in-person appointment with you in February 2026, and I still do as I reminisce and write this letter. But, they aren’t just tears of sadness. They are also tears of gratitude—I know this journey would have been much more difficult if I didn’t have your wonderful care and support all these years. I’m so happy that I was able to get off of TPN back then after 5 years of being on it. Not only that, but I’m so thankful that I can eat orally to my heart’s content without pain and abdominal distention. I know that’s in part due to you, so thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you so very much for caring for me. I will never forget you, and I wish you all the best as you start your retirement. :’) With immense gratitude, Kerissa
By Kerissa Lee March 17, 2026
"God is always doing more than we know, working toward a good we will one day rejoice in." -Lysa Terkeurst