Another surgery tomorrow.
| The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. – Psalm 23:1-2 |
My second surgery of this month is tomorrow, and we have to BE there at 5 AM.
To be honest, I’m still having a hard time knowing that I have a hole in my central line and that it has to be removed and replaced.
The hole has gotten so large, and I’m scared that bacteria is getting into my blood.
I feel like a ticking time bomb and am bracing myself in case I get sepsis for the 5th time.
It’s been a rough month to this new year, and I’m still recovering from my surgery on the 15th.
I can’t walk on my right foot fully because it’s still too painful, and sadly, I’m also experiencing CRPS symptoms in my foot (for those who don’t know, I was diagnosed with Complex Regional Pain Syndrome after I had this same exact surgery back in 2010).
I’m not sure if it’s a full flare-up or what….
I see the pain team next week thankfully.
My stitches were removed this past Monday, and I was told that it will be 4-6 more weeks before things will get better. I’m trying to cast all my cares at Jesus’ feet, but it’s hard not to worry about all the above.
But, as it says in Psalm 23, Jesus leads me beside “still waters.”
When I think of still waters, one word comes to mind.
PEACE.
So in the midst of this storm, I’m reminded that I can have peace because:
1) Jesus is “my Shepherd,” and He guides and cares for me.
2) He “leads me” and is right by my side.
3) He “makes me lie down in green pastures” (in other words, He gives me REST).
4) I “shall not want” (that is, I don’t have to worry about anything because He always provides in any and every situation).
So, as I prepare for surgery #22 tomorrow, I’m encouraged and so grateful to the Lord for His faithful promises.
I know this storm will calm down soon!
Thank you so much for praying for me, dear friends and family. You are a huge blessing to my life, and I’m reminded once again that I’m not alone on this journey.
