10 Year Anniversary

Kerissa • July 9, 2020

Hi, friends!


How has it already been almost 4 months since I last blogged??

Well, I just wanted to come on here and share a big milestone!   Exactly 10 years ago to this day (July 8, 2010), I had foot surgery to remove a vascular malformation in the bottom of my right foot that I was born with.   17 year old me had no clue what was going to happen following that surgery!

▫ After that surgery, my foot was never the same, and the pain was unbearable—even bedsheets caused severe pain.   My foot was swollen, turned purple/green, and was so very cold.   My pediatrician referred me to the OHSU pain center (I never knew there was such a thing as a pain clinic!).   In March 2011, I met my amazing pain doctor (my favorite doctor to this day who now works at the University of Washington Center for Pain Relief) and was diagnosed with Complex Regional Pain Syndrome.   Despite intensive physical therapy, a “desensitization” program, mirror therapy, and nerve blocks, the CRPS traveled to my left foot and later my left hand.   My pain dr. was convinced that some underlying disease was causing this.   In September 2011, I had surgery to have a spinal cord stimulator (SCS) implanted in my back.   That blocked the nerve pain in my feet and helped so much.

▫ In 2012, I started experiencing more symptoms and was diagnosed with Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome and Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome.   Then, in September of that year, my left eye started drooping and I also began experiencing left-sided weakness, headaches, fatigue, etc.   I went to the ER 2 days in a row and was later admitted for 9 days.   I was poked and prodded and had 4 CT scans, electromyograms, a spinal tap, and much more.   After ruling out stroke, MS, myasthenia gravis, and other diseases, they still couldn’t figure out what was going on.   My neurologist really wanted extensive MRIs done of my brain and whole spine, but my spinal cord stimulator was not MRI-compatible.   It was a sad day when I had to have another surgery to have my SCS removed.   I had that 4 hour MRI in December, and they came back normal.   Yes, I was thankful nothing like a brain tumor was found, but I was broken-hearted that we still didn’t have any answers.

▫ In April 2013, my parents, sis, and I traveled to Cincinnati Children’s Hospital.   I had many more procedures done (I won’t go into detail), and the genetics team suspected I could have a mitochondrial disorder.   I had genetic testing done, and while waiting for those to come back, they also referred me to a mitochondrial specialist (he has studied mitochondrial diseases for more than 40 years!) in San Diego.   Later in 2013, I started sleeping more than 12 hours a day (many days, I wouldn’t wake up until 3:30-4 PM) and also experienced GI dysmotility/gastroparesis.

▫ In early 2014, I started losing weight, so I had to get a nasal-jejunal (NJ) feeding tube placed.   In June, I was finally able to see my mitochondrial specialist in San Diego.   He ordered much more genetic testing, and I also had surgery for my first muscle biopsy.   My gastroparesis continued to progress, and I was mainly eating baby food pouches, soup, Ensure drinks, etc.   In August, I had surgery to get a jejunostomy feeding tube placed in my abdomen because the NJ tube really irritated my esophagus.   But, a couple months later, I started not tolerating my tube feeds, and my stomach would get distended with nausea/vomiting.   As the months passed, my weight dropped down to 77 pounds.   I exhausted all motility treatments, and there was nothing left but to start IV nutrition (TPN) which is always last resort because of the risks/complications that can occur.   I was admitted to the hospital to start TPN the day after Christmas 2014.

▫ In January 2015, we finally got my muscle biopsy results back, and it showed that I have a pretty significant mitochondrial DNA depletion.   My mito specialist diagnosed me with “Mitochondrial DNA Depletion Syndrome with multi-organ involvement.”   In February, I developed my first blood clot in my PICC line, so my line was removed and I had surgery to get a groshong central line placed in my chest.   At the end of 2015, my liver enzymes started sky-rocketing, and my GI dr. felt so sure that I couldn’t have another genetic disorder, but to make sure, I had a liver biopsy to check for Wilson’s Disease.   Well, to his great surprise, the biopsy showed that I had an enormous amount of copper in my liver.   So I was diagnosed with yet another disease.   I got acute hepatitis and felt so ill from it.   *To this day, I have to take a chelating medication to get rid of the copper in my body.*   In December, I was also experiencing terrible aching back pain and malaise.

▫ So, soon after the new year in 2016, I went to the ER, and the doctors found out that my blood magnesium level was really low.   I was referred to a nephrologist (kidney dr.) and was diagnosed with renal magnesium wasting.   My kidneys just don’t hold onto magnesium (this can be seen with mito).   You know how some people take a magnesium supplement which is usually 150-300 milligrams?   Well, I have to receive 8 GRAMS of IV magnesium every single day.   In March, I got sepsis (a horrible experience) for the first time from a central line-associated bloodstream infection (CLABSI).   I had to have another surgery to remove the infected line and place a new one.   I can’t remember the exact date, but in 2016, I also started experiencing hives, terrible mouth sores, itching all over, etc.   I was diagnosed by an immunologist with yet another condition—Mast Cell Activation.   That year, I also tore my left hip labrum (due to my joints being so hyper-mobile from Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome), so in August, I had to have surgery to get that repaired.   My orthopedic surgeon  d id a 2nd muscle biopsy as well to check up on the mitochondrial depletion.   At the end of the year, I came down with a virus and a terrible cough that lasted more than 4 months.   The cough was so violent that I fractured a rib.   My PCP ordered a DEXA bone scan, and we found out that I have osteopenia.

▫ In January 2017, I got a DVT (deep vein thrombosis) in my chest.   I also had surgery to remove my central line and get a port placed.   About a month or so before this, I experienced a tunneled central line infection (different from a CLABSI and not as bad), so my GI dr. wanted me to get a port placed since ports are “supposed” to not get infected as much as lines. Well, I never follow protocol ( ), and I developed sepsis at the end of June, just 5 months after the port placement.   So once again, I had surgery (this time awake ) to remove my port, and a few days later, I had another surgery to place a new hickman central line..

▫ In early 2018, I tore my right hip labrum, so in August, I had yet another surgery to repair it.   Most of you know what later happened…   I was doing completely fine medically after that, but about 24 hours later, I suddenly went into septic shock and the rapid response team had to be called because I had a fever and my blood pressure was dangerously low.   So low that I had to be transferred to the ICU to receive norepinephrine, oxygen, and other treatments.   I was pretty incoherent, so I don’t remember a whole lot.   I just know that my kidneys stopped working well, my lungs partially collapsed, and I got ischemic hepatitis.   It was so scary and traumatic.

▫ At the end of January 2019, I got sepsis for the 3rd time, but this time, they couldn’t find the cause (which can sometimes happen).   That 11 day hospital stay was incredibly hard, and I cried so much from all of the severe pain and discomfort.   I won’t go into detail, though, because this is already super long.   *I do want to share that I haven’t had sepsis for 1 and a 1/2 years now!   Praise the Lord!! *   Later that year, we found out my osteopenia worsened, and my endocrinologist also diagnosed me with hypoparathyroidism, often seen with Wilson’s Disease and mito.   Sadly, the vascular malformation in the bottom of my right foot also grew back which can happen because it’s genetic.

▫ On January 15, 2020, I had surgery to have the vascular malformation removed because it was causing so much pain, and I couldn’t walk well with it.   Just 1 week later, my central line got a big hole in it, so I had to have another surgery as soon as possible to get it replaced, even though I was still recovering from the foot surgery.   Right after that surgery, I developed an awful GI infection.   All the post-op pain, my regular chronic pain, and abdominal pain from the infection was so horrible, and I was constantly in tears.

I have left out a lot in this 10-year recap because this is already so very long..   But I just want to say, I don’t know how I could live with all of this if I didn’t have Christ in my life.   He daily bears my burdens, sustains me, and carries me through when I don’t have the strength to go on.   Without Him, I would be so lost, and I’m sure I would be angry, bitter, and depressed.

All of this happened in just 10 years…and I wonder how much more will happen these next 10 years..   But, you know, the Lord gives me grace at the exact time that I need it—not a moment before…not a moment later.

I love this quote by George Matheson: “My God, I have never thanked you for my thorn!   I have thanked you a thousand times for my roses, but never once for my thorn…   Teach me the value of my thorns…Show me that my tears have made my rainbow.”

So, yes, after much surrender, I thank God for these thorns because without them, I wouldn’t have the roses!   You may wonder, “What are the roses?”   Well, to name a few, if I didn’t have these trials, I never would have met such amazing doctors, physical therapists, and nurses (and I wouldn’t be able to share Jesus’ love with them), my relationship with the Lord would probably be shallow, I most likely wouldn’t have learned hand lettering (I started learning lettering because I can’t do active things like “normal” people but can still use my hands thankfully!), and much more!

These past 10 years, you have all walked beside me on this journey, and for that, I’m SO grateful.   The Lord has blessed me with the best family and friends!   So, here’s to the next 10 years..  With God’s help, I pray that I will keep being faithful to this calling.   God is good. 

By Kerissa Lee March 17, 2026
"God is always doing more than we know, working toward a good we will one day rejoice in." -Lysa Terkeurst
By Kerissa Lee March 7, 2026
Hi, friends, I would really appreciate prayer. Some of you already know this, but at the end of January, I started dealing with an abdominal abscess right next to my j-tube. I looked back through my records, and that was my 6th abscess. :( Since then, it’s sadly been one issue after another. I won’t go into all that has happened, but I’d especially love prayer for my j-tube site. After the abscess, I had my tube changed to a new one on 2/27. The surgery nurse practitioner decided to try the next size up to see if it could possibly decrease some of the leakage, but unfortunately, that was the wrong decision. It’s too large, so now the site is leaking tenfold compared to my previous size. The small intestinal fluid that keeps leaking out around the tube is full of acid which is burning my skin and making it raw. 😭 If you want to know what it feels like, imagine having a bad burn on your skin…then, on top of that, imagine acid being poured onto the burn every hour continuously. That’s how much pain I’ve been in, and I haven’t been able to sleep very well until after 6:30-7 AM each night because the burn is so intense! :’( I could cry, and I have—that’s how bad the pain is… I would show you a picture of the site but it’s not pleasant. 🥺 I’ve been emailing the nurse practitioner every single day, asking to have the tube changed back to the previous size. She hasn’t been helpful. I’ve tried all of her recommendations, but they aren’t fixing the root cause. I had to get an x-ray with contrast earlier today to check tube placement. If she does eventually agree to have the tube changed, I don’t know how I’ll bear the pain of the procedure… Remember, they don’t use sedation for these procedures (my GI specialist is shocked they don’t!), and even though I’ve been asking for lidocaine to be injected for past tube replacements, how do I bear to have needles pushed into such raw tissue?! 😭 Please pray that I will be courageous and strong in the Lord. I think of the verse from Philippians 4:19, and it’s comforting: “And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.” He will grant me the peace and strength I need to be brave. His grace is sufficient. ❤️
By Kerissa Lee January 3, 2026
Dear friends, As I reflect back on 2025, January started off looking very bleak. I had just recovered from yet another “mitochondrial crash” in December 2024, but my neck weakness was still significant and unresolved. I mentioned this many times, but I’ve never before experienced such severe muscle pain in my neck—it felt like my neck was doing a constant “plank exercise” 24/7. I cried so much and needed relief. 😭 Before this, I also truly took for granted how vital neck muscles are for ALL movement. Even simply standing requires neck strength to hold the head up. I was confined to my bed and the recliner because the neck weakness/pain was so debilitating. At the beginning of January was my long-awaited appointment with the neuromuscular neurologist at the University of Washington. But, the outcome was very disappointing because he simply took these symptoms to mean mitochondrial disease progression. My eyes are watering and my nose stings as I type this with emotion because I didn’t know (like I do now) what the following months would hold. I really did wonder if I was starting to die because not only did I have this disabling neck weakness but I also experienced severe nystagmus every single day (it never happened this frequently before). The brain is what controls eye movement, so my brain wasn’t getting enough energy needed for the simple act of moving the eyes. In February, after several blood tests came back with more “bad” autoimmune markers and I also started dealing with unusual joint pain in both elbows and shoulders, one of my doctors had me start taking 2 powerful antioxidants: N-Acetyl Cysteine (NAC) and Liposomal Glutathione. NAC, specifically, has shown that it can be beneficial for Lupus, an autoimmune disorder. We weren’t sure yet if my symptoms were early signs of Lupus, but my doctor recommended these antioxidants anyways for the mitochondrial depletion. When May came around, I once again had another “mito crash” with significant muscle weakness all over my body (not just in my neck), droopy eyelids, nausea, and increased pain. I was so thankful, though, that we were able to manage this one at home and I didn’t need to be admitted! Even more amazing was the fact that this was the month I noticed I could slightly lift my head half an inch off of the pillow (when lying down). Was God healing my neck? 🥹 June was a big month. As many of you know, 2 separate muscle biopsies show that I have Mitochondrial DNA Depletion Syndrome, but the doctors still can’t pinpoint the genetic mutation responsible for this depletion. So the OHSU metabolic team and I all wrote letters to apply to the NIH Undiagnosed Diseases Network (UDN). And God answered the first of many prayers as my case was surprisingly accepted. 🥲 I don’t currently have a recent update regarding this study as they told us it could take months or even years for anything to happen if anything happens at all (I should email them for an update). Last I heard, the team was analyzing all of my raw genetic data. At the end of June, my internal medicine doctor referred me to the Complex Pain clinic since I was still experiencing so much pain and needing high doses of pain meds. The specialist started me on Buprenorphine, but it’s been a rough go of it. It definitely helps the pain to become more manageable (another answer to prayer!), but it also causes horrible insomnia which I’m still dealing with. 😞 My sleep specialist said I’m basically experiencing a bad case of chronic jet lag—I’m simply exhausted and cannot fall asleep until 4:30-6:00 AM! 😭 A previous blog post shares about the “catch 22” I’m in. I’d so appreciate continued prayer for my sleep. It’s been very hard. :( July through September was amazing as I noticed that my neck weakness had improved a little more each day to the point that it eventually fully resolved….!! I truly could cry tears of joy and gratitude! 🥹🥹 Even my physical therapist started noticing that I didn’t have to hold my head up with my hands when moving around! God answered everyone’s prayers, and I fully believe he miraculously healed me in this area!! Yes, it could be that the 2 antioxidants helped, or it could be that I had finally recovered 9+ months later from something like Viral Myositis of the neck from fighting a viral infection in Hawaii in October 2024. My doctors just don’t know fully. But I am in awe at God’s lovingkindness and great mercy. 🥹❤️ 2 verses come to mind... One is from Ephesians 2:4–“But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us..” And the other is Philippians 2:27–“Indeed he was ill, near to death. But God had mercy on him..” The phrase “But God” sticks out to me. It reminds me that God is the one who has a plan and purpose for our lives, and it may be totally different than what we think is best or what we’d like. I don’t know what I would say or how I would act if the neck weakness still persisted to this day.. It would be extremely hard, and I know I would struggle greatly mentally and spiritually. But I also know 100% that God would faithfully sustain me like he did during those long, dark months from October 2024 to May 2025 and on.. God’s mercy continues to be so evident as I’m physically in even better shape than I was back in 2023. 🥹 Aside from my sleep, I’m doing so well that I might even have to find a part time job sometime down the road! I don’t know how long this “stable” period will last, and I know life could quickly change again in the blink of an eye (like it has in the past).. But, while I’m stable, I’m having the MOST JOY feeling quite “normal” and being strong enough/having the energy to babysit my almost 6-month old foster nephew. 💙 He’s over 17 pounds now, and every time I hold him, it’s such a GIFT from the Lord to have the muscle strength for carrying/lifting him! I wanted to end this on a joyous note by sharing one last thing that happened in 2025–the opening of my Pain With Purpose Shop around my 33rd birthday this past October! ☺️ It’s a joy selling my handlettered designs (just a heads-up, my card inventory clearance sale ends on the 5th!). 😊 It’s also SO special that my church’s Care Ministry can send encouragement cards I’ve designed to those in our church body who are experiencing suffering. This gives me a little purpose since it’s sometimes hard not to feel useless living with a chronic illness (I’m sure many of you who are suffering can definitely relate..). 😢 Unless something major happens again, I think this might be my last health update for a while as I’m so enjoying this stable season—I continually thank God for it and don’t want to take one moment for granted! I love you all and am so grateful that you are here with me in the valleys and on the mountain tops. 💚