By Kerissa Lee
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January 21, 2025
Hi, friends, First off, the piece of art above was hand lettered by me last year before all āthisā happened. Iām sad to say that I only have 3 or 4 pieces left to share until I run out.. š¢ I went to see my neuromuscular neurologist in Seattle on January 8th. My neck weakness continues to progress which has been so scary. He said I need to get a neck MRI and some specific blood tests to check for polymyositis. If it is normal, though, his opinion is that this is mitochondrial disease progression. š I havenāt seen my mitochondrial specialist in San Diego in more than 3 years (I started seeing him in 2014!), so Iām sadly no longer considered his patient. The neurologist sent a new referral to him, but Iām not sure if it will be accepted.. Heās almost 80 years old (one of the pioneers of āmitochondrial medicineā). And I donāt know if heās cutting back on ānewā patients.. Even if he did accept my case again, Iām currently not physically well enough to fly down from Oregon.. š My quality of life continues to worsen ever since this unusual neck weakness started this past October. I know Iāve said this before, but I truly miss doing all of my favorite things (like hand lettering art) or even simple tasks (setting up my own IV infusions, vacuuming, washing hair, etc.). š„ŗ Before October, I was even starting to drive to physical therapy or the grocery store. Yes, Iām 32 and still donāt have my driverās license due to being preoccupied fighting mitochondrial disease for almost 15 years now. I never shared the exciting news that I was able to get my driverās permit over 2 years ago, and it was so fun to drive myself to appointments close to home. Now, I canāt do any of the above which has been difficult to process. I shed tears every now and then just thinking about all that has changed. š¢ Iām having to go to bed around 6:30 PM to lie down and rest my neck. But Iām so uncomfortable from the pain, and I donāt fall asleep until after 3 AM every night. So my pain dr. referred me to palliative care. š¢I know itās not hospice, but Iām still sad weāre at the point where I even need palliative care. Unfortunately, theyāre most likely going to deny the referral (if they havenāt already) because we were told they only see cancer or heart transplant patients. I even checked if thereās palliative outside of OHSU, but they, too, see only oncology. Itās so hard that cancer gets a lot of funding, research, and support, and those with rare diseases are left āon their own.ā Itās isolating and lonely. š„ŗ I saw my PCP again, and he is just the best and full of compassion. ā¤ļø He placed the neck MRI as urgent and also ordered more labs to keep pursuing answers since all this is such an atypical picture if it was mito progression.. In case palliative turns my case down, my dr. told me that the internal medicine clinic has a complex and chronic pain management clinic (different from the pain center that Iāve been going to since 2011). He referred me to them to try and help me get more comfortable. I have a wonderful team of doctors and an amazing naturopath, but Iām even going to see a functional medicine doctor for the first time on the 23rd. Praying he could maybe have some additional insight on everything and will offer some fresh ideas for treatment as well.. I also have an appointment with the metabolic geneticist on the 28th.. Iāve read through the Bible more than once, but itās amazing how the Lord points us to specific verses at just the right time. I donāt know about you, but sometimes I think, āI donāt remember reading this before!ā Paul David Trippās newest devotional Everyday Gospel has been so very encouraging. He shared 2 verses from the book of Genesis where Jacob said that God āanswers me in the day of my distress and has been with me wherever I have goneā (35:3). Several chapters later, Jacob also said that God āhas been my shepherd all my life long to this dayā (48:15). When I read that, I felt such peace. God spoke to my heart to remind me that He is with me and for meā¦.in every circumstance no matter how hard. ā¤ļø Could you please pray that I can have the MRI completed this month and not have to wait many weeks? Pray that all of my doctors will have wisdom as my case is so complex. Lastly, could you pray that I will persevere and keep walking by faith? I feel so weary, not only physically but also mentally and spiritually. š„ Thank you so much for praying for me all these years. ā¤ļø