Updates on the past few weeks.

Kerissa • September 14, 2017

Hey friends,

Thank you so much for praying for me and my family.  It means a lot to all of us!  Your love and support really encourages me.

My sister had her abdominal CT scan, but aside from some incidental findings, the scan was completely normal and didn’t explain her symptoms at all. She saw her GI specialist who recommended an upper GI endoscopy.  That was done on the 11th.  Other than a little tissue inflammation (the dr. biopsied 2 areas, and we’re now waiting for results of those), the scope, too, was completely normal and again doesn’t explain her symptoms.. I know “normal” is good news, but it’s been frustrating and discouraging for her and all of us as we still don’t know what’s going on.  Thankfully, the dramatic weight loss has stopped, but she still feels ill and has the same upper right abdominal pain.  Next week, she has an appointment with a naturopath, and we’re praying the dr. has more insight and can think out of the box..

I recently had a brain EEG that my neurologist ordered to figure out why I’m experiencing frequent (and sometimes severe), whole body jerking, especially at night. EEGs are no fun because the tech has to place 28 leads with “glue” all over your head!  I also had to “hyperventilate” (which makes you feel super yucky) and face a strobe light with rapid, flashing lights….both of those are standard tests that can trigger seizure activity.  Still waiting for results, but I do have an appointment with my neurologist on the 25th.

I also had a follow-up with the sleep medicine provider.  I have obstructive sleep apnea (from muscle weakness) and need to use my BiPAP machine every night.  Unfortunately, I’ve been having worsening central sleep apnea (CSA happens when the brain doesn’t tell the body to breathe….this is much worse than OSA…).  I’m so exhausted and wake up with really bad headaches every day.  The sleep specialist wants me to use something called an adaptive servo ventilator or something else like that for the CSA, but I first need a sleep study done in the lab in order for my insurance to cover the machine.  Sadly, the lab is very booked out, and my study isn’t until December! They are trying to get me in sooner, though..  Please pray there’s an opening sooner than December!

I started that medicine for my kidneys to potentially hold on to magnesium better, but I need to wait a couple of weeks to see if it really helps..  My blood pressures can get pretty low with this med (it can drop down to 82/56ish), but thankfully, I haven’t had worsening dizziness or lightheadedness.

Tomorrow, I have a podiatry pre-op appointment as I’m having surgery next week for ingrown toenails on my big toes.. Even though I cut my toenails straight and don’t even wear shoes often, my nails still curve so much and cut into the skin. It causes swelling, redness, and a lot of pain that aggravates my small fiber neuropathy.  I really didn’t want to have this done and we put it off as long as possible by just having my podiatrist clip the ingrown toenail as much as possible, but that only “fixes” the problem short-term.  He recommended that I have this corrected permanently, so we decided to go through with it.  I have to be put out for this, and I’ll have to do “wound care” for 2 weeks. Not looking forward to it, but I do want to get this problem fixed.  The day after the procedure, my pain dr. will be doing a bilateral lumbar sympathetic nerve block to calm the surgical pain down so that I don’t have a nerve pain flare-up in both feet..  It will be such a full week as I also see my GI dr. on Monday the 18th.

This Friday, I have an ENT (ear, nose, throat) appointment because I’ve been having swallowing issues that cause choking. We’ll see what they say/recommend.

As most of you know, I played violin for about 9 years (my sister taught me, and all throughout the years, we played beautiful duets together….I have to say, we sounded really good.. haha).  I was so very sad when I had to stop because of CRPS (complex regional pain syndrome) that spread to my left hand.

After numerous years, the CRPS slowly resolved in my left hand (but I do still have nerve pain in both hands…the nerve pain is much worse in my feet, though).  My hands have been “itching” to hold my violin and bow, so recently, I picked up my violin after not even touching it for several years.  To my amazement (and my sister’s), I was still able to play for a little bit without aggravating the nerve pain.  Yes, my hand is super weak, but I can still play with vibrato and even shift to different positions (and not just stay in 1st position…that’s violin jargon for those who are confused..).  My sis and I played 2 duets right then, and it brought back so many special memories!!  I was so happy. I wanted to play more but didn’t want to overdo it.

Well, a day or so after, I started having really bad pain in my shoulder, and now I can’t move it well at all..  My physical therapist says I have a shoulder impingement… It was so disappointing to hear that, but I still want to play violin!  And thankfully, he did say that I’ll be able to play again once this heals.  He said it can only be for a few minutes at a time, though.  But I’m just so excited the pain in my left hand is not at all like it used to be!!  The pain was so very severe back then with discoloration and swelling.  CRPS is just the worst.

I think that’s all for now.. So much keeps happening….and it’s been super busy, but I’m taking it one day at a time and leaning on the Lord for courage and strength.  He is full of grace and compassion, and I could never do “this” without Him by my side!!

By Kerissa Lee March 17, 2026
"God is always doing more than we know, working toward a good we will one day rejoice in." -Lysa Terkeurst
By Kerissa Lee March 7, 2026
Hi, friends, I would really appreciate prayer. Some of you already know this, but at the end of January, I started dealing with an abdominal abscess right next to my j-tube. I looked back through my records, and that was my 6th abscess. :( Since then, it’s sadly been one issue after another. I won’t go into all that has happened, but I’d especially love prayer for my j-tube site. After the abscess, I had my tube changed to a new one on 2/27. The surgery nurse practitioner decided to try the next size up to see if it could possibly decrease some of the leakage, but unfortunately, that was the wrong decision. It’s too large, so now the site is leaking tenfold compared to my previous size. The small intestinal fluid that keeps leaking out around the tube is full of acid which is burning my skin and making it raw. 😭 If you want to know what it feels like, imagine having a bad burn on your skin…then, on top of that, imagine acid being poured onto the burn every hour continuously. That’s how much pain I’ve been in, and I haven’t been able to sleep very well until after 6:30-7 AM each night because the burn is so intense! :’( I could cry, and I have—that’s how bad the pain is… I would show you a picture of the site but it’s not pleasant. 🥺 I’ve been emailing the nurse practitioner every single day, asking to have the tube changed back to the previous size. She hasn’t been helpful. I’ve tried all of her recommendations, but they aren’t fixing the root cause. I had to get an x-ray with contrast earlier today to check tube placement. If she does eventually agree to have the tube changed, I don’t know how I’ll bear the pain of the procedure… Remember, they don’t use sedation for these procedures (my GI specialist is shocked they don’t!), and even though I’ve been asking for lidocaine to be injected for past tube replacements, how do I bear to have needles pushed into such raw tissue?! 😭 Please pray that I will be courageous and strong in the Lord. I think of the verse from Philippians 4:19, and it’s comforting: “And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.” He will grant me the peace and strength I need to be brave. His grace is sufficient. ❤️
By Kerissa Lee January 3, 2026
Dear friends, As I reflect back on 2025, January started off looking very bleak. I had just recovered from yet another “mitochondrial crash” in December 2024, but my neck weakness was still significant and unresolved. I mentioned this many times, but I’ve never before experienced such severe muscle pain in my neck—it felt like my neck was doing a constant “plank exercise” 24/7. I cried so much and needed relief. 😭 Before this, I also truly took for granted how vital neck muscles are for ALL movement. Even simply standing requires neck strength to hold the head up. I was confined to my bed and the recliner because the neck weakness/pain was so debilitating. At the beginning of January was my long-awaited appointment with the neuromuscular neurologist at the University of Washington. But, the outcome was very disappointing because he simply took these symptoms to mean mitochondrial disease progression. My eyes are watering and my nose stings as I type this with emotion because I didn’t know (like I do now) what the following months would hold. I really did wonder if I was starting to die because not only did I have this disabling neck weakness but I also experienced severe nystagmus every single day (it never happened this frequently before). The brain is what controls eye movement, so my brain wasn’t getting enough energy needed for the simple act of moving the eyes. In February, after several blood tests came back with more “bad” autoimmune markers and I also started dealing with unusual joint pain in both elbows and shoulders, one of my doctors had me start taking 2 powerful antioxidants: N-Acetyl Cysteine (NAC) and Liposomal Glutathione. NAC, specifically, has shown that it can be beneficial for Lupus, an autoimmune disorder. We weren’t sure yet if my symptoms were early signs of Lupus, but my doctor recommended these antioxidants anyways for the mitochondrial depletion. When May came around, I once again had another “mito crash” with significant muscle weakness all over my body (not just in my neck), droopy eyelids, nausea, and increased pain. I was so thankful, though, that we were able to manage this one at home and I didn’t need to be admitted! Even more amazing was the fact that this was the month I noticed I could slightly lift my head half an inch off of the pillow (when lying down). Was God healing my neck? 🥹 June was a big month. As many of you know, 2 separate muscle biopsies show that I have Mitochondrial DNA Depletion Syndrome, but the doctors still can’t pinpoint the genetic mutation responsible for this depletion. So the OHSU metabolic team and I all wrote letters to apply to the NIH Undiagnosed Diseases Network (UDN). And God answered the first of many prayers as my case was surprisingly accepted. 🥲 I don’t currently have a recent update regarding this study as they told us it could take months or even years for anything to happen if anything happens at all (I should email them for an update). Last I heard, the team was analyzing all of my raw genetic data. At the end of June, my internal medicine doctor referred me to the Complex Pain clinic since I was still experiencing so much pain and needing high doses of pain meds. The specialist started me on Buprenorphine, but it’s been a rough go of it. It definitely helps the pain to become more manageable (another answer to prayer!), but it also causes horrible insomnia which I’m still dealing with. 😞 My sleep specialist said I’m basically experiencing a bad case of chronic jet lag—I’m simply exhausted and cannot fall asleep until 4:30-6:00 AM! 😭 A previous blog post shares about the “catch 22” I’m in. I’d so appreciate continued prayer for my sleep. It’s been very hard. :( July through September was amazing as I noticed that my neck weakness had improved a little more each day to the point that it eventually fully resolved….!! I truly could cry tears of joy and gratitude! 🥹🥹 Even my physical therapist started noticing that I didn’t have to hold my head up with my hands when moving around! God answered everyone’s prayers, and I fully believe he miraculously healed me in this area!! Yes, it could be that the 2 antioxidants helped, or it could be that I had finally recovered 9+ months later from something like Viral Myositis of the neck from fighting a viral infection in Hawaii in October 2024. My doctors just don’t know fully. But I am in awe at God’s lovingkindness and great mercy. 🥹❤️ 2 verses come to mind... One is from Ephesians 2:4–“But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us..” And the other is Philippians 2:27–“Indeed he was ill, near to death. But God had mercy on him..” The phrase “But God” sticks out to me. It reminds me that God is the one who has a plan and purpose for our lives, and it may be totally different than what we think is best or what we’d like. I don’t know what I would say or how I would act if the neck weakness still persisted to this day.. It would be extremely hard, and I know I would struggle greatly mentally and spiritually. But I also know 100% that God would faithfully sustain me like he did during those long, dark months from October 2024 to May 2025 and on.. God’s mercy continues to be so evident as I’m physically in even better shape than I was back in 2023. 🥹 Aside from my sleep, I’m doing so well that I might even have to find a part time job sometime down the road! I don’t know how long this “stable” period will last, and I know life could quickly change again in the blink of an eye (like it has in the past).. But, while I’m stable, I’m having the MOST JOY feeling quite “normal” and being strong enough/having the energy to babysit my almost 6-month old foster nephew. 💙 He’s over 17 pounds now, and every time I hold him, it’s such a GIFT from the Lord to have the muscle strength for carrying/lifting him! I wanted to end this on a joyous note by sharing one last thing that happened in 2025–the opening of my Pain With Purpose Shop around my 33rd birthday this past October! ☺️ It’s a joy selling my handlettered designs (just a heads-up, my card inventory clearance sale ends on the 5th!). 😊 It’s also SO special that my church’s Care Ministry can send encouragement cards I’ve designed to those in our church body who are experiencing suffering. This gives me a little purpose since it’s sometimes hard not to feel useless living with a chronic illness (I’m sure many of you who are suffering can definitely relate..). 😢 Unless something major happens again, I think this might be my last health update for a while as I’m so enjoying this stable season—I continually thank God for it and don’t want to take one moment for granted! I love you all and am so grateful that you are here with me in the valleys and on the mountain tops. 💚