Thoughts on waiting.

Kerissa • October 15, 2015

Hey friends,

Tomorrow, rheumatology is getting me in for the Periodic Fever Syndrome, and I’m so thankful to the Lord that it’s much sooner than January. The appointment is at 1 PM.  Please pray that this specific dr. will be able to start treating it.  The numerous fevers are hard on my body, and I’ve been dealing with episodes of joint pain and inflammation since August.

I received my repeat 24 hr. copper test results, and sadly, the level increased from 77 to 106 in just a month (normal range is 3-50).  We have lots to discuss with my GI dr..  I see him this coming Monday.  I also have a follow-up with my sleep medicine specialist next week.

I will update after those appointments!

To end, I recently came across this little “devotional” I wrote years ago.  I can’t remember if the homework assignment was to paraphrase a passage or an original composition.  I don’t even recall when I wrote it (my bad for not putting a date!)…maybe it was after being newly diagnosed with Complex Regional Pain Syndrome (aka Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy) or when I started dealing with all my other numerous rare diseases.  Nevertheless, I wanted to share it in hopes that it encourages you.

The Hardest Thing to Do
by Kerissa

          Wait .  Sometimes, this word can be the hardest to accept when in times of trial or tribulation.  There will be times when we ask with little faith, “Why do I have to go through this?” or “God, why am I suffering?”  What can be done about these questions when one is anxious for answers or does not know what path to take?
          Although waiting on God and humbling one’s self can be the hardest thing to do, God states in His Word that His “plans…stand firm forever, the purposes of his heart through all generations.”  We should not worry about anything because He always intercedes at the right time.  Psalms 27:14 says, “ Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.”  Complaining like the children of Israel did against Moses will do nothing.  Waiting in quiet patience and faith, even when under affliction, will bless God and make Him proud.
          If we accept our difficulties with humbleness, we will be able to say with confidence, “Now, Lord, not my will, but Yours be done.  I do not know what to do.  But I will wait until You drive back my foes.  I will wait , for my heart is fixed on You alone, O God, and my spirit waits for You in the full conviction that You will be my joy and my salvation, my refuge and my strong tower.” ~Charles Spurqeon
          So wait on the Lord.  He really does hear our cries and prayers.  Know that God is always by and on our side.  In the end, we will all be able to understand why God placed those terrible thorns in our path, and someday we will thank God for the word “ wait ” in each of our lives.

By Kerissa Lee April 16, 2026
Hi, friends, I just wanted to write an update on what’s happened since my last post. Sadly, the 2 different tube changes haven’t helped, and there’s still so much leaking around the tube. 🙁 The abdominal pain was decreasing each day, but for some reason, it has ramped up again and has been steadily getting worse the last several days. The pain is sharp and throbbing—it also hurts to use my abdominal muscles. I saw my primary care dr. this past Friday, and he ordered an urgent CT scan. I had that done this past Monday, and the scan shows that the balloon on the tube is lodged in my abdominal wall (it’s called buried bumper syndrome). 😥 So painful, but I’m thankful for answers! I actually had this issue many years ago, and usually, changing the tube size helps. But we’ve already tried 2 different tube sizes in March which hasn’t helped. I don’t know if the tract got damaged or what.. My PCP messaged the surgery team twice now, but they’re not responding still. Ever since my general surgeon left OHSU 2ish years ago to practice in New Orleans, it hasn’t been a good transfer to a different team. 😢 In addition, the CT scan also revealed that I have ground glass opacities in my left lung, so I have to go through work-up for that as well to figure out the cause.. Aside from these latest issues, I’m praising God that my mitochondrial disease has been stable still!! So thankful for God’s grace and faithfulness. The day I got my CT results, I read this excerpt below from one of Joni Eareckson Tada’s daily devotionals, and it was like the Lord was speaking right to my heart. I hope it’s an encouragement to you. ❤️ “Present pain and afflictions tend to heighten future joy. When is peace the sweetest? Right after the conflict. When does a cold drink taste best? When you’ve become very thirsty. When do you appreciate rest the most? After hours of hard labor. When is joyful company most pleasant? After enduring long days of loneliness. The truth is, our recollection of past sufferings may one day enhance the bliss of heaven. Eternity with the Lord will be so much more heavenly to those of us whose faith has been tested, battered, and tried, time and again.” -Joni Eareckson Tada One more thing.. I’d really love prayers for my uncle (my dad’s older brother). He’s been very sick in the neuro ICU with serious issues. First pneumonia, then bacteria in his spine which later broke his back. He had a major spinal surgery but still can’t move his legs. 🥺 On top of that, his kidneys started failing, so he had to be placed on continuous dialysis. He also had to be put on a ventilator due to fluid in his lungs. Then, he still couldn’t breathe well, so he had to get a tracheostomy tube placed in his neck. 🥺 Despite all this, he and his family are so strong and trusting the Lord which is a huge testimony to all of us and to the ICU. Could you please pray for peace, strength, and healing over his body? I know he and his family would be so grateful for your prayers. 💙 P.S. I wish I could show you my foster nephew’s sweet face in this photo from Easter Sunday! He is now 9 months old—the most precious and adorable little boy!! Our lives are so much sweeter with him in it. 🥹
By Kerissa Lee March 31, 2026
Dear Dr. Phillips, There aren’t enough words to express how thankful I am to have had such an amazing GI doctor like you these past 13 years. I think of all the hard challenges that have happened starting at age 20 and beyond: experiencing GI dysmotility, not being able to eat “normal” foods without terrible abdominal pain/distention, only tolerating soft consistencies like baby food pouches (which was not fun as a 22 year old!), needing an NJ tube placed down my nose, having a jejunostomy tube surgically placed, then no longer tolerating tube feeds, dropping down to 77 pounds, getting admitted the day after Christmas to start TPN, being surprised by the extremely high copper levels on my liver biopsy and starting treatment for that, going through septic shock which caused ischemic hepatitis (remember when my liver function test was 1674!), having sepsis 5 other times from multiple central lines and ports, requiring urgent surgery to remove my gallbladder, needing D10 added to my IV fluids for numerous mitochondrial crashes, and much more. Through all the highs and lows, you were there for me, and I truly feel like I hit the “doctor jackpot” to have had a GI specialist as caring, compassionate, knowledgeable, and kind as you. I shed quite a few tears to my chagrin at my last in-person appointment with you in February 2026, and I still do as I reminisce and write this letter. But, they aren’t just tears of sadness. They are also tears of gratitude—I know this journey would have been much more difficult if I didn’t have your wonderful care and support all these years. I’m so happy that I was able to get off of TPN back then after 5 years of being on it. Not only that, but I’m so thankful that I can eat orally to my heart’s content without pain and abdominal distention. I know that’s in part due to you, so thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you so very much for caring for me. I will never forget you, and I wish you all the best as you start your retirement. :’) With immense gratitude, Kerissa
By Kerissa Lee March 17, 2026
"God is always doing more than we know, working toward a good we will one day rejoice in." -Lysa Terkeurst