Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the Lord,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.
The Sovereign Lord is my strength.
As I reflected on Habakkuk’s words, I thought about how they relate to me. Not in the sense of there being no grapes on the vines or sheep in the pen, but more like the following ways:
Though it’s almost been a year since I was diagnosed with CRPS in my foot
and I’m now dealing with it in my hand,
though I’m 19 and haven’t yet been able to continue my education after high school, like the rest of my graduating class,
though I can’t play violin yet because of the pain and stiffness in my fingers,
though faced with the uncertainty of the future
and how there is no cure yet for this condition,
yet “I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior“
The Sovereign LORD is my strength.
Now, after reading a few of my “thoughs,” you may feel sorry for me, but I don’t want you to. I just want you to know that God is still good in the midst of suffering, and I have made it this far because of the strength that my Sovereign Lord gives me for each day.
Yes, it’s been hard, but I actually thank God for this experience. If this never happened…
-I wouldn’t know all my caring doctors, nurses, and medical assistants
-I wouldn’t have been blessed with the friendships of my therapists and even the front desk receptionists
-I wouldn’t have become as familiar with medical terms and treatments (which may prove helpful later on!)
-My relationship with Christ and love for Him probably wouldn’t be as strong
-I wouldn’t have had a chance to share the love of Christ with those at OHSU and PRA
-and the list goes on! 🙂
So rejoice with me that the Lord gives strength and is sovereign over every area of our lives!