“Weeping may tarry for the night,
but joy comes with the morning.”
There have been days when I would cry great tears on my pillow at night in the darkness, not wanting anyone to see. From those past times, I would ask God, “Why is this happening? Why me? Why do I have to be the one with an uncommon disease? Why is CRPS such a difficult condition to treat?” And deep down inside, I would hear the Lord say to me, “You don’t need to know ‘why.’ Just trust Me.” It’s been almost 2 years since this whole journey started. And today is a special day. I’m experiencing the joy that comes with the morning! 🙂
Today is the six month anniversary of my spinal cord stimulation surgery. 🙂 It just seems like yesterday when I woke up at 5 am, took a rushed shower with Hibiclens soap, and headed to the Center for Health and Healing with my whole family! It was a big day for all of us! At 7:30 sharp, the anesthesiologist pushed me to a packed OR where I saw my three doctors, three anesthesiologists, two St. Jude Medical representatives, and several nurses! Halfway through the surgery, they woke me up to ask me where I felt the stimulation. I barely remember that happening. 😉 And a little over 3 hours later, I woke up with a device inside of me and two incisions on my back! If there were no bending, lifting, and twisting restrictions, I would have RUN out that door with a happy heart! 🙂
By God’s grace, I have come a long way. Yes, the pain in my feet is still not completely gone, but it’s nothing like it used to be, and I’m so thankful.
“You have turned for me my mourning into dancing;
You have loosed my sackcloth
and clothed me with gladness,
that my glory may sing your praise and not be silent.
O Lord my God, I will give thanks to You forever!”